Jesse’s Prayer

The Bible tells us the story of King David. He was just a young shepherd boy, the baby of the family, when he was anointed God’s king by Samuel. The Bible also tells us how he traveled to deliver his brother’s food, and ended up on a battlefield. Close your eyes and see little David standing on an empty plain staring down a giant. The Bible tells us that he was so small that he couldn’t handle the weight of the armor. He was a scrawny little boy whose faith in God outweighed his fear. What courage! I read the story of young David and I find the courage God gives me, and I am ready to face my own giants. 
However, this week I look at this story differently. As I read this story I wonder how Jesse felt. Who is Jesse? Jesse was David’s father. How did Jesse feel when he saw Samuel place the burden of leadership on his youngest son? How did Jesse feel when he learned that David walked out onto that battlefield with a pouch full of stones to fight a monster?

This week I see my daughter facing her giants. Watching her face down her fears is a lot harder than when I face my own. Watching her walk out without any armor is terrifying and I find myself gripping my Bible with white knuckles. This seems the greatest test of faith I have had to face. How do I face it?

I remember that God loves her more than I do. God cherished her before I even knew that such a glorious child could exist. When Jesus was hanging on that cross, or kneeling before the whip, he was thinking of that wonderful little girl. She was in his heart every step of the way to Golgotha. I can trust my baby to a God that loves like that.

There is more to it than that. God loves me too. When it seems like the fears of parenting are about to knock me down, God is there to lift me up. If I step out of the boat, He will take my hand and lead me across the water. He will help me find my steps and He will give me the strength and courage I need if I turn to Him.

Philippians 4:6-7  

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything; tell God your needs, and don’t forget to thank Him for His answers. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ.

So this week, as I let me little girl go, I think of Jesse. I think of Jesse standing there watching his baby anointed as God’s chosen king. I imagined the tightness in his chest as the realization of what his son will have to face comes to him. Then I remember that David learned faith from his father. I remember that Jesse was a man of faith too, and that he trusted God to watch over his child. It is then that I can see the missing piece. I see Jesse kneeling with his son, David, and praying to God.  So, I kneel down and I empty my heart, both my joys and fears to God. I choose to trust God with my daughter.  In trusting God, I find peace.